Laptopless, therefore, Internetless

I miss my laptop a lot. Rather, I miss having a laptop with an internet connection. We make these luxuries a necessity and then, without them everything seems so different.

I am currently in the 15th week of the pregnancy, 2 days away from beginning the 16th week. With every week that passes by I feel like jumping and screaming to the world that I am successfully moving on. Everything is going well and I feel good too, except that it is hot. I can’t stand the heat.

Can’t wait to go to India to enjoy the cool weather and rains there. Not to mention the yummy food and equally delicious company. I am not going to be eating any human being, but everyone there is so sweet, therefore delicious, right? Hehehehe…

As you can see, I am in a crazy kinda mood. These hormones, I tell you. Sometimes up and sometimes down. Ahhhh, the joys of pregnancy!


Crashed Laptop!

9th June 2010, this is when I saw you sucking on your lil fists. You were 12 weeks and 05 days old then. I can’t express how heart-warming each and every visit to the doctor is. It is like I already know you but can’t hold you or cuddle you. I feel so high and content after each and every ultrasound scan. And, it does make me more and more impatient.

I really don’t know how I am going to cope in the last trimester. The impatience will really get to me. As a mother I want to you grow fast now, but once you are out then, probably, I would want you stay as a lil tiny baby for a lonnnnnnng time.

I really don’t know how it will be like for the both of us. It is a really nervous time for me. All these different emotions of motherhood, trying to read up on everything to be this perfect mother to you. But, the realization that nothing is ever perfect is also there. Inshallaah, I hope I am a perfect mother to you with all my imperfections.

I haven’t been able to write for long as my laptop crashed. So, I am dependent as and when I get time on your father’s laptop. I can’t tell you how hot it is here. I am grilled and no AC!!! Alhamdullilaah Ala Kulli Haal. At least, it isn’t as hot as UAE or Bahrain, there this is bearable even with a desk fan. I can’t believe I am saying this!

Today, I feel like talking to you through this blog. I want you to know how I felt at particular times while you were growing with me, however, insignificant they maybe. In a couple of days we would be traveling out of Egypt and into a new country, India. I am really excited to be going to Hyderabad. I can’t wait to meet everyone there and can’t wait to gobble up all the yummy food. I hate cooking and thrive on what other people feed me, hahahahahaha. I just don’t understand how people get themselves to cook. Beats me! Just a few more days of patience.

You are the first grandchild of the family and everyone is as excited as I am. Your Nani wants twins, so she can have double the fun around her, Mashallaah.

Aaaaaaahhhhh, I can’t wait to see you, hold you, cuddle you (I am not sure about the other yucky things involved with baby-care, but oh well, too small a price to pay for someone as precious as you).
Love You….

Thursday, May 27 2010

Sunday, 23 May 2010, that’s when I saw your little hands and feet. I couldn’t believe how fast you grew! You were just a little unrecognizable tadpole, then a really tiny bean and now, you’re a little baby. Your head was formed; your hands and legs were recognizable. This time a tear dropped too, I couldn’t believe you were there with a tiny heartbeat and growing to be my baby.

In two weeks, inshallaah, I will be off to Hyderabad, India. There your Billi-Nani will be feeding so that you grow big and strong. I have lost weight in these three months, I don’t like cooking, so I try to fill myself with whatever doesn’t need to be cooked. I can’t wait to get to India, I will be back in familiar surroundings, and your grandparents and Mamas will be there for some time. I am really looking forward to all that.

Tomorrow, you will be 11weeks old. 11 weeks in my body! I can’t imagine anything as comforting as having you so close to me. Right now, you are a part of me. As much as I long to see you and have fun with you, I love the feeling of you being in me and I can’t wait to feel your kicks and punches.

Not going to write much now, I am in Cairo and quite hungry. Can’t wait for Daddy to get his work done and we leave. Daddy got back from Doha on Monday, 24 May 2010 and he is back to his grind.

I love you!

**This was originally written on May 27th 2010, but posted online now**