9th June 2010, this is when I saw you sucking on your lil fists. You were 12 weeks and 05 days old then. I can’t express how heart-warming each and every visit to the doctor is. It is like I already know you but can’t hold you or cuddle you. I feel so high and content after each and every ultrasound scan. And, it does make me more and more impatient.
I really don’t know how I am going to cope in the last trimester. The impatience will really get to me. As a mother I want to you grow fast now, but once you are out then, probably, I would want you stay as a lil tiny baby for a lonnnnnnng time.
I really don’t know how it will be like for the both of us. It is a really nervous time for me. All these different emotions of motherhood, trying to read up on everything to be this perfect mother to you. But, the realization that nothing is ever perfect is also there. Inshallaah, I hope I am a perfect mother to you with all my imperfections.
I haven’t been able to write for long as my laptop crashed. So, I am dependent as and when I get time on your father’s laptop. I can’t tell you how hot it is here. I am grilled and no AC!!! Alhamdullilaah Ala Kulli Haal. At least, it isn’t as hot as UAE or Bahrain, there this is bearable even with a desk fan. I can’t believe I am saying this!
Today, I feel like talking to you through this blog. I want you to know how I felt at particular times while you were growing with me, however, insignificant they maybe. In a couple of days we would be traveling out of Egypt and into a new country, India. I am really excited to be going to Hyderabad. I can’t wait to meet everyone there and can’t wait to gobble up all the yummy food. I hate cooking and thrive on what other people feed me, hahahahahaha. I just don’t understand how people get themselves to cook. Beats me! Just a few more days of patience.
You are the first grandchild of the family and everyone is as excited as I am. Your Nani wants twins, so she can have double the fun around her, Mashallaah.
Aaaaaaahhhhh, I can’t wait to see you, hold you, cuddle you (I am not sure about the other yucky things involved with baby-care, but oh well, too small a price to pay for someone as precious as you).