Am I Enjoying My Pregnancy?

Ok, I am going to be honest in replying to this.

Am I enjoying my pregnancy so far? In a couple of days I will be 29 weeks into my first pregnancy, am I enjoying it?

Yes, I am enjoying. I am enjoying the kicks and jabs. I am enjoying the fact that I am going to be your mother. I am enjoying walking around with a big belly. I am enjoying being so close to my little baby. I am enjoying the fact that no one else can enjoy this special bond with you, right now (yes, I know that sounds selfish, but I am enjoying this fact a bit more than I should, probably because I am really lonely here and yearn to be with family).

Now, there are some things that I am not enjoying at all. It may sound as if I am complaining but I said I would be honest. So, here goes. I am not enjoying the fact that I can’t be with my family (your grand-parents) who are the only ones that would pamper me like crazy. I am not enjoying the heat one bit. I am not enjoying the food, I want what I am craving for, not just anything to keep me and you alive. I am not enjoying not having any maternity stuff. I am not enjoying being here all alone (oops, redundant, I am really hating it). I am not enjoying the idea of delivering you in Egypt (the thought stresses me out).

And, then there is the stress of how life will change after 16th December!

Conclusion: Yes, I am enjoying your pregnancy. Everything has its ups and downs, I may never forget the downs as I am not going through my first pregnancy as I dreamt it would be.

BUT, whenever I look down at my growing belly, I always smile and think of the time you are spending in there jabbing and kicking, something no one has felt yet except me. It warms my heart knowing that our bond has already started, way before your birth (I am going to cry when you are out because I will have to share you with everyone… Sigh!)

The fact is, right now, you are ONLY MINE and no one elses. I share you with no one for nine whole months. And, this supersedes everything. E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G.


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