I have given this a lot of thought. I am really embarrassed to put this up as a post, but I am sure this is one memory that I am going have a good laugh at later on. So, here goes:
I have been nagging your Daddy about things we need to buy before I step into the 9th month of pregnancy. Things like Pampers, Baby Lotion, Baby Cologne, Baby Shampoo, Baby Powder, Cotton Balls, Bath-Tub and so on. But, for some reason I kept repeating Pampers more often than the rest. So, your Dad decided to surprise me.
A couple of days back he walks in with a small bag of Pampers for a newborn. I was really really really surprised. I didn’t expect him to give these things a thought. Since then, I have been walking around with that Pampers bag. Your Daddy and I pretend as if it is a baby. Hahahahahaha… I dropped it once while juggling a water-bottle in one hand and the Pampers bag in another. And, your Daddy goes, “Gasp, you dropped the baby!” Hahahahahahaha… The Pampers bag ‘sleeps’ with us on the bed. But, when I don’t have space I end up dumping it on top of the headboard of the bed. And, of course, your Dad has to comment about it, “Normal people don’t keep their babies up there” Hahahahahahahahahaa…
This small bag of Pampers has become ‘the pre-baby’ at home. It is really funny as sometimes I treat it as a non-living thing and at other times it is treated like a baby. Whenever we talk about how we are going to rock you to sleep or burp you or play with you, it is all demonstrated on the Pampers bag. I intend to pack this in the hospital bag, but I don’t think I am ready to use it. I want to keep it as a souvenir of some sort. When you grow up this little bag may just bring back a whole load of memories of your pregnancy (not that I particularly need a Pampers bag). This bag is representative of the warmth, love and attachment we already feel towards you. It sounds crazy but it is really cute at the same time.
Instead of playing with a baby-doll, we are role-playing with a Pampers bag. After all, we are a crazy family. And, you are, inshallaah, going to be a part of it SOON!